The Journey

I have traveled through oceans of courage, ambition, and success.

Lived what seems to be a thousand lifetimes, none of which, I regret, for it has brought me here. If one could see inside my mind, I cannot begin to know how to answer the many questions that particular individual might have for me.

And in knowing this, I smile. There are even times in which I catch myself laughing. 

When I began my life anew years ago, I had no idea what was going to happen. Stepping out into the great wide open on blind faith alone, I was determined to do it right. To conquer the world as the person I was destined to be. At that point, I was not as focused on the "journey", but the destination. I had a rough idea of where I wanted my life to eventually land, and kept focus on that point. 

But time rolled onward, bringing with it the desire to reach outside of myself and push boundaries. Do things I never thought possible. Live on MY terms. Experience new things. Dare myself to live. Push my own limits. Step outside of my comfort zone. 

And now, years have passed...rolled by so slowly and beautifully. I have lived a life worth talking about. I AM the woman I wanted to be, all along...and then some. 

As I look around myself, I see...well there are no words to describe what I see.  

I am loved and cherished. God never leaves my side. 

A new chapter is beginning to unfold and I am more than ready. 

As I look back on the journey it  has taken to bring me to this point, I realize something. Both the journey, AND the destination, have all been methodically planned out, and I am a very blessed lady.

To most, this may sound like jiberish, but to me? 

To me, everything makes perfect sense. 

And that is really all that matters, now isn't it?

 

 

Winds Of Change

 It has been nearly five months since my last blog. I have been busy with so many different things, that I have not had the time, nor the energy, to prattle about the goings on of my life. 

But I will say this:

Life amazes me. 

I have never been here. No. Not in this particular situation, where the air is safe and calm, my feet are firmly placed upon the ground, and home is wherever we make it. In this life, I have been blessed. Continuously, I watch as honor and beauty touch my eyes and ears. Through the choices I have made, God has used these opportunities to teach me many things. And I have listened. 

When I began my life anew, I made a choice. That choice was to leave it all behind. To learn what I did not want and know for certain, what I did want. I stopped putting limitations on my life. Nothing held back my spirit. I was free and my wings grew daily. Geography ceased to be an issue and I explored the world in the hopes of finding some sort of logic beyond my own. After many amazing memories made and lessons learned, I made another choice. 

WAIT. Stop, and wait.

This was something I had not truly allowed myself to do, in the past. To just "wait" for what needed to be revealed to me. To allow God to bless me in His own time. I have been living so robustly and on my own accord, that I one day realized how much I truly did need to let God grab the wheel. 

And honestly, it was the most difficult and amazing thing I have ever done. I learned more about who I am and what I am fully capable of beyond entertainment and travel. I learned more of my intrinsic attributes. My talents. My ability to love fully, laugh, and embrace every day with both hands. 

Now, things have changed immensely. For the better. This life is a journey, and if we do not explore each and every corner, we are wasting it. I had tried many ways of life. Now, I have added another way to that mix. 

And it has brought me all I have ever dreamed of....