I am giddy with the anticipation of what is yet to come. With the rebirth of a novel and the start of a new one. This, along with the new opportunities in makeup artistry, have left me full of purpose and excitement. I feel very confident in the future.
There was once a time I planned everything. I made lists, invested money, and felt uneasy when I veered off course, even a little.
But life, as it does, has changed. The past 7 years have transformed me into someone who does not need to know the exact logistics of the "hows" and the "whys".
I learned this when things did begin to just fall into my lap. I realized that there is an entire world out there that will come to me if I just allow it. So now? I do say my prayers and wish upon stars. I toss pennies into wishing wells and write secrets in my journal. But I know that it is going to transpire exactly as it should.
And that is worth the world.
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Never Lose Your Magic.
As
It Seems
So
tightly gripping me to my very core
as the sound of a dream awakening touches my lips,
once more.
The future untold and so full of new light.
There is no good reason to put up a fight.
as the sound of a dream awakening touches my lips,
once more.
The future untold and so full of new light.
There is no good reason to put up a fight.
We hold so tightly to the wheel,
gripping it as if it were anything real.
Release that faulty familiar grasp
before turning away from where you were never going to pass.
Remove those training wheels and know you will never shake.
Stop planning your escape from some hypothetical mistake.
It is all an illusion to throw off the game.
Smoke and mirrors and lies, used to dismay
But
real magic will cancel even the deadliest compromise.
Re-illuminate the light in your eyes
and rediscover your freedom in this life.
Stop looking so closely at mocking details and fictional facts.
Don't let this world fool you just before the second act.
Re-illuminate the light in your eyes
and rediscover your freedom in this life.
Stop looking so closely at mocking details and fictional facts.
Don't let this world fool you just before the second act.
What
we see is not the true effectual reality.
But rather something created, feared and preposterously full of empty.
But rather something created, feared and preposterously full of empty.
Remember
that light? The one you feel burning inside?
It illuminates and casts away the truth we once denied.
This world that exists, seemingly too good to be true, is the only reality our magic will ever do.
It illuminates and casts away the truth we once denied.
This world that exists, seemingly too good to be true, is the only reality our magic will ever do.
It
is solid and steadfast if we continue to believe, eyes closed.
For in God, we have chosen, we have always had the code.
Let your faith be your guide and the magic expose the paint.
Let us not be confused by that which we think is the “awake”.
For in God, we have chosen, we have always had the code.
Let your faith be your guide and the magic expose the paint.
Let us not be confused by that which we think is the “awake”.
Confused
yet? Well don't be, because this magic serves us well.
It is the realm of the unseen and God caught you before you fell.
It is the realm of the unseen and God caught you before you fell.
Copyright - Adrienne Jessica Coe
Any and all reproductions of this work will result in extreme legal penalties.
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Silence! Maybe no... ;-)
Heart – beat a little bit slower this time
Take it all in and leave it behind.
Where he still dwells in a little brick house.
Right where I left him. Well, where else?
Take it all in and leave it behind.
Where he still dwells in a little brick house.
Right where I left him. Well, where else?
Back on that bright winding road
I still feel the breeze. Hear that sweet echo?
We owned those trails. We owned the sea.
There was nothing left to lose, except you and me.
I still feel the breeze. Hear that sweet echo?
We owned those trails. We owned the sea.
There was nothing left to lose, except you and me.
So next time you hear a runaway train.
Don’t just stand and call my name.
I can't "save yourself" from everything.
I am no longer the one to blame.
Don’t just stand and call my name.
I can't "save yourself" from everything.
I am no longer the one to blame.
I dwell in the city where the towers once stood.
Doing exactly what I said I would.
But that should come as no surprise.
When have I ever compromised?
Doing exactly what I said I would.
But that should come as no surprise.
When have I ever compromised?
The cannons and the rifles and the bombs all blow
Trying to sleep through each echo.
War all around and sleep to be had.
‘Trade a military base for a dangling chad.
Trying to sleep through each echo.
War all around and sleep to be had.
‘Trade a military base for a dangling chad.
Back on that bright winding road
I still feel the breeze. Hear that sweet echo?
We owned those trails. We owned the sea.
There was nothing left to lose, except you and me.
I still feel the breeze. Hear that sweet echo?
We owned those trails. We owned the sea.
There was nothing left to lose, except you and me.
Round and round and round she goes.
Can she be stopped? Only God knows.
There are days to be lived and love to be had.
She still travels this world, bucket list in hand.
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Can she be stopped? Only God knows.
There are days to be lived and love to be had.
She still travels this world, bucket list in hand.
(c) All Rights Reserved
Monday, March 18, 2013
Dusty Roads Make Dusty Feet.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=18hotkrgQ5Q
It has certainly been some time since my previous blog. The new year has crashed into me, revealing more about myself than I ever thought possible.
Two years ago, my grandmother was diagnosed with Colon Cancer. We all gathered round her with prayers, love, laughter, and brought her home with us, healthy, and happier than I had ever seen her in my life.
Before I go on, my granny was more than that. She was my mother, my teacher, my doctor, and my friend. She taught me more about life than I had ever realized. The real kicker was when she, of all people, encouraged me to go to NYC, in the first place. If you knew my grandmother, you would know that she was opposed to flying in an airplane, having her grandchildren hopping around in big scary cities like NY, and had never supported such a huge decision in my life. When she told my mother that she knew it would change my life, I felt as though I could grow my own wings to fly to NY, instead of taking a plane.
Granny was with us for almost two years after her surgery. When I found out she had taken a turn for the worse, I knew I had to be with my family...So at the speed of sound, I packed up and went to stay at my aunt and grandmothers place. We stayed up all night taking care of granny. 24 hours later, she went to Heaven.
And she went like a true lady, with grace, faith, love, and integrity. I am honored to be her granddaughter.
But something happened. Something I can't quite explain. My life began to feel like it had some sort of euphoric magic in it. I remembered who I was and where I came from. Though my grandmother and aunt have taken up new residency since my childhood, we were still all together. FAMILY. Beans and potatoes. Watching wheel of fortune. Laughing at the most silly things. And I remembered...SO MUCH. The most important thing on earth, is family.
I found my home again.
The well beaten paths, the rivers, creeks, laid back afternoons, summer dresses, feet barefoot on the dash board, back roads driving, guitar strumming, kind of place. A place that I had forgotten just how much a part of me it truly is. Sure, I can fit into big cities. I can figure out subway systems and put people in their places, if need be. I can deal with musicians in studios until 3am, sipping coffee and tweaking tunes. But nothing on earth beats this.
And best of all, it fits in with my dreams.
The days since, have been filled with prayers. Prayers for His will. Not my own. I let go of the steering wheel and decided that He can have it for awhile.
I realized that listening to country music on the radio is probably one of my most favorite things to do. Along with spending time with family I had not seen in years. That, in and among itself, is without any measure or price tag.
I love my family. No matter what, we can always find something to laugh about. Even through tears, as my granny taught us.
I feel more fearless than ever before. I have so many things left on my list, and am working on them. But most of all, I awaken every day and rejoice. I can feel life all around me, within me, and above me.
Now, slumber parties with my aunt and cousins are something I am giddy about. Spending TRUE time with Michael when he comes back from Vancouver to visit.
But mostly, I just want to live each day with more love in my heart than ever before. To laugh with my entire soul. To soar above the petty things of this world, and be me. Just...me. Well...........maybe "me" with a few surprises up my sleeve...but that is kind of me anyway, right?
Thank you grandma. For everything. I take you with me wherever I go. Always have. Always will.
*Bless
It has certainly been some time since my previous blog. The new year has crashed into me, revealing more about myself than I ever thought possible.
Two years ago, my grandmother was diagnosed with Colon Cancer. We all gathered round her with prayers, love, laughter, and brought her home with us, healthy, and happier than I had ever seen her in my life.
Before I go on, my granny was more than that. She was my mother, my teacher, my doctor, and my friend. She taught me more about life than I had ever realized. The real kicker was when she, of all people, encouraged me to go to NYC, in the first place. If you knew my grandmother, you would know that she was opposed to flying in an airplane, having her grandchildren hopping around in big scary cities like NY, and had never supported such a huge decision in my life. When she told my mother that she knew it would change my life, I felt as though I could grow my own wings to fly to NY, instead of taking a plane.
Granny was with us for almost two years after her surgery. When I found out she had taken a turn for the worse, I knew I had to be with my family...So at the speed of sound, I packed up and went to stay at my aunt and grandmothers place. We stayed up all night taking care of granny. 24 hours later, she went to Heaven.
And she went like a true lady, with grace, faith, love, and integrity. I am honored to be her granddaughter.
But something happened. Something I can't quite explain. My life began to feel like it had some sort of euphoric magic in it. I remembered who I was and where I came from. Though my grandmother and aunt have taken up new residency since my childhood, we were still all together. FAMILY. Beans and potatoes. Watching wheel of fortune. Laughing at the most silly things. And I remembered...SO MUCH. The most important thing on earth, is family.
I found my home again.
The well beaten paths, the rivers, creeks, laid back afternoons, summer dresses, feet barefoot on the dash board, back roads driving, guitar strumming, kind of place. A place that I had forgotten just how much a part of me it truly is. Sure, I can fit into big cities. I can figure out subway systems and put people in their places, if need be. I can deal with musicians in studios until 3am, sipping coffee and tweaking tunes. But nothing on earth beats this.
And best of all, it fits in with my dreams.
The days since, have been filled with prayers. Prayers for His will. Not my own. I let go of the steering wheel and decided that He can have it for awhile.
I realized that listening to country music on the radio is probably one of my most favorite things to do. Along with spending time with family I had not seen in years. That, in and among itself, is without any measure or price tag.
I love my family. No matter what, we can always find something to laugh about. Even through tears, as my granny taught us.
I feel more fearless than ever before. I have so many things left on my list, and am working on them. But most of all, I awaken every day and rejoice. I can feel life all around me, within me, and above me.
Now, slumber parties with my aunt and cousins are something I am giddy about. Spending TRUE time with Michael when he comes back from Vancouver to visit.
But mostly, I just want to live each day with more love in my heart than ever before. To laugh with my entire soul. To soar above the petty things of this world, and be me. Just...me. Well...........maybe "me" with a few surprises up my sleeve...but that is kind of me anyway, right?
Thank you grandma. For everything. I take you with me wherever I go. Always have. Always will.
*Bless
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
The Journey
I have traveled through oceans of courage, ambition, and success.
Lived what seems to be a thousand lifetimes, none of which, I regret, for it has brought me here. If one could see inside my mind, I cannot begin to know how to answer the many questions that particular individual might have for me.
And in knowing this, I smile. There are even times in which I catch myself laughing.
When I began my life anew years ago, I had no idea what was going to happen. Stepping out into the great wide open on blind faith alone, I was determined to do it right. To conquer the world as the person I was destined to be. At that point, I was not as focused on the "journey", but the destination. I had a rough idea of where I wanted my life to eventually land, and kept focus on that point.
But time rolled onward, bringing with it the desire to reach outside of myself and push boundaries. Do things I never thought possible. Live on MY terms. Experience new things. Dare myself to live. Push my own limits. Step outside of my comfort zone.
And now, years have passed...rolled by so slowly and beautifully. I have lived a life worth talking about. I AM the woman I wanted to be, all along...and then some.
As I look around myself, I see...well there are no words to describe what I see.
I am loved and cherished. God never leaves my side.
A new chapter is beginning to unfold and I am more than ready.
As I look back on the journey it has taken to bring me to this point, I realize something. Both the journey, AND the destination, have all been methodically planned out, and I am a very blessed lady.
To most, this may sound like jiberish, but to me?
To me, everything makes perfect sense.
And that is really all that matters, now isn't it?
Monday, September 10, 2012
Winds Of Change
It has been nearly five months since my last blog. I have been busy with so many different things, that I have not had the time, nor the energy, to prattle about the goings on of my life.
But I will say this:
Life amazes me.
I have never been here. No. Not in this particular situation, where the air is safe and calm, my feet are firmly placed upon the ground, and home is wherever we make it. In this life, I have been blessed. Continuously, I watch as honor and beauty touch my eyes and ears. Through the choices I have made, God has used these opportunities to teach me many things. And I have listened.
When I began my life anew, I made a choice. That choice was to leave it all behind. To learn what I did not want and know for certain, what I did want. I stopped putting limitations on my life. Nothing held back my spirit. I was free and my wings grew daily. Geography ceased to be an issue and I explored the world in the hopes of finding some sort of logic beyond my own. After many amazing memories made and lessons learned, I made another choice.
WAIT. Stop, and wait.
This was something I had not truly allowed myself to do, in the past. To just "wait" for what needed to be revealed to me. To allow God to bless me in His own time. I have been living so robustly and on my own accord, that I one day realized how much I truly did need to let God grab the wheel.
And honestly, it was the most difficult and amazing thing I have ever done. I learned more about who I am and what I am fully capable of beyond entertainment and travel. I learned more of my intrinsic attributes. My talents. My ability to love fully, laugh, and embrace every day with both hands.
Now, things have changed immensely. For the better. This life is a journey, and if we do not explore each and every corner, we are wasting it. I had tried many ways of life. Now, I have added another way to that mix.
And it has brought me all I have ever dreamed of....
But I will say this:
Life amazes me.
I have never been here. No. Not in this particular situation, where the air is safe and calm, my feet are firmly placed upon the ground, and home is wherever we make it. In this life, I have been blessed. Continuously, I watch as honor and beauty touch my eyes and ears. Through the choices I have made, God has used these opportunities to teach me many things. And I have listened.
When I began my life anew, I made a choice. That choice was to leave it all behind. To learn what I did not want and know for certain, what I did want. I stopped putting limitations on my life. Nothing held back my spirit. I was free and my wings grew daily. Geography ceased to be an issue and I explored the world in the hopes of finding some sort of logic beyond my own. After many amazing memories made and lessons learned, I made another choice.
WAIT. Stop, and wait.
This was something I had not truly allowed myself to do, in the past. To just "wait" for what needed to be revealed to me. To allow God to bless me in His own time. I have been living so robustly and on my own accord, that I one day realized how much I truly did need to let God grab the wheel.
And honestly, it was the most difficult and amazing thing I have ever done. I learned more about who I am and what I am fully capable of beyond entertainment and travel. I learned more of my intrinsic attributes. My talents. My ability to love fully, laugh, and embrace every day with both hands.
Now, things have changed immensely. For the better. This life is a journey, and if we do not explore each and every corner, we are wasting it. I had tried many ways of life. Now, I have added another way to that mix.
And it has brought me all I have ever dreamed of....
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