There are times I find myself craving just one ounce of rage. A moment of screaming seething truth spewing from my burning vocal chords.
But alas, I lack that certain ability to hate or become spiteful, vindictive, or malicious. I cannot "manipulate" with the best of them. Nor do I want to. I want to see everyone happy, smiling. loving, being loved, and happy. I want to hold the broken in my heart and pardon their follies. This is who I am.
But in this world, I have observed others who have placed worth upon themselves. This worth gives them permission to do things...things I cannot do. They allow themselves to lie. They have no qualms with drama or causing others pain. Maybe even taking pleasure in the pain they cause. They can disregard those who love them. As long as the other things in their lives are bringing them pleasure.
See, in this life, we must all decide our worth. What will we accept? What will we allow? How will we live? Will we poison ourselves with debauchery? Find excuses to use drugs? To lie? What kind of individuals will we allow into our atmosphere? How far will we go to be a part of another's life?
Long long ago, I placed a value upon myself. A price tag, if you will. Long long ago, I decided that I deserve only the best. That I will only live a life of peace, success, truth, love, mercy, honor, and tranquility. A simple life full of loving friends and contentment. Full of laughter and love. A drama free life. This life has been a great success, thus far. When you carve your goals in stone, nothing can prevent them from being accomplished. And I have accomplished MUCH. Happiness, being the biggest accomplishment of all.
The most odd aspect of this dynamic is the response I receive from those who have placed their worth as "less than". Before I even know or realize the way this person truly is, they seem to harbor some sort of resentment toward me...Others have noticed this and many point it out.
The only theory left is the fact that they are looking at what they have given up on. Themselves. The fact that they can look at the mirror standing before them and make note of their lack.
Maybe this sounds harsh to you. Perhaps you think it could even be a bit of conceit...but deep down, we all know the truth about this subject. This just happens to be one of those things that others' are too afraid to regard because it is a little too true and none of us are immune.
So whenever I run into another person who may threaten this beautiful life I live, I do what I must. Life is too short for dramatic and dishonest people. People who go out of their way to rip the price tag from of your worth. The only way of life is truth and honor, and I cannot and will not be pulled down by their own "worth". The price tag that they themselves have placed upon their lives.
I know what I am worth.
And no matter what ever happens in this world, that will never change.
And no matter what ever happens in this world, that will never change.
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